Let me start by saying that since Aug 30th, I have been undergoing testing for Lupus, MS and the big, ugly, Cancer. It has been a trying time for me...not understanding what has been going on with my body, trying to maintain my composure without panicking, and facing the "C" word. It's been rough, but also a great period of growth for me.
Today I received the long-awaited news...Benign polyps, no CANCER!!
I felt tremendous relief, joy and elation. As I drove home in moderate pain (from more poking & prodding), I could hardly contain my excitement. Then it hit me that millions of people have experienced the mix of emotions that I have experienced since this journey began, only to receive dreaded news.
And my heart broke.
Why me? Why am I OK and others aren't? Why do I have a new lease on life when someone else is facing a possible death sentence? I guess it's called "Life".