Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Looking Forward

I have learned that in life, the one thing that is consistent, is INconsistency!! This is SO frustrating at times, but that's just the way it is...maybe it's a good thing..not sure!

Brad and I have had to make a life-changing decision lately and boy oh boy is that difficult. We have made the decision and have started to take the necessary steps to begin the new path and are on our way. It has been a tough process, but I feel confident that the right decision has been made and now we look forward.

I really do try to blog every weekday, but this whole situation has drained me so much that combined with my daughter's move (she and her kids have been living with us for a month while waiting for her house) I haven't really been able to do much more then go through the motions for the past few days. But the decision has been made and actions have been taken so now we have a new direction and I'm excited...I think!?!

I know that things are going to be good, actually great and even better than before. I have faith that the Lord has directed our path and through much prayer He has answered our prayers with great love and's just getting to the place where it is really great...what is the path going to be like?

Faith is such an amazing thing. I have joked about being careful about praying for faith (or patience) because the Lord WILL let you learn that lesson! I believe that faith is a belief in things which are not seen but are true. Just like this major change in our life, I know that we are going down the right path. I know that our decisions have been right. It's the "getting there" that scares me a bit BUT Faith and Fear cannot occupy the same space so one has to has to be Fear that goes...Faith is SO easy when everything is going smoothly. It's when the floor falls out from beneath you that it becomes so difficult to hold on!

I was really stressed the other day. So much so, that my heart went into A-fib for about 72 hours which is a first since my heart surgery nearly 2 years ago. It scared me and I knew that I had to do something to get back into sinus rhythm...I was NOT going to the hospital if I could help it.  I took a pill that's supposed to help (it kinda sorta did) but I knew I neded something else so all I could think of was to kneel down and pray. That was the real medicine! I actually knelt down in my closet of all places and asked Heavenly Father for His divine help...He delivered!!

Within about 10 minutes, my heart had settled down and I knew that things would be alright. I was blessed with the assurance that if we did all that we could and remained prayerful that we would make it down the possibly probably difficult path ahead of us...I feel like I am living in a scene from the Wizard of Oz...not sure of what lay ahead. I figure I can get through just about anything as long as I don't have to encounter those freaky flying monkeys!

So I apologize for my absence yesterday...hopefully I will be able to remain motivated to blog daily since it really benefits me more than anyone else anyway...but more importantly, hopefully I will be able to make it down the path for the next few months and have the strength to conquer whatever comes my way...even those stupid monkeys!!


Lee said...

lousy monkeys

addicted2shius said...

So funny that you mention praying for patience & Him teaching us the lesson. Often times, I find myself frustrated with my kids & I'll vent (and sometimes) even cry about it to my husband. We both know patience is something I need more of. So he'll frequently tell me to pray for more patience. But as I was reading your blog, it dawned me on me. When has He ever just given something like that so freely without allowing us to struggle first in order to TRULY receive it. Thank you for reminding me that blessings are something that I was be really ready to receive in order to TRULY receive it.

Tales From My Empty Nest said...

Best of luck with the new direction for your life. I hope things work out well for you. Watch out for those monkeys. Praying that God will continue to direct your path. Keep the faith. Love & blessings from NC!

Lynn said...

I've been going through some family rough stuff lately and it's taken quite a toll on my time. So I've missed blogging for a few days.

I am not caught up on your life and I see that I should of come to blog anyway during these past few days cause your words could of helped me through it.

You are amazing! I love how you think and write. It's so uplifting!

Mary......I did not know you had heart surgery. I will keep you in my prayers. Sounds like you've had a LOT to deal with the past little while.

Hang in there!